I Apologize
It's like I jumped off the face of the earth or something! My posts have been way spread out and have almost no written content, so I guess today I will catch you guys up and give all my excuses.
Senioritis is very serious and can be extremely deadly (to your GPA) and I caught it the very first week of school. So now, by the fifth week it is raging within me. No, but seriously, I have no motivation for school, I feel like there is no point because I'm not really learning anything I feel like, yet I am getting more homework than I have had in any other school year. This lack of motivation has begun to spread to everything from this blog to teaching piano to writing anything really. Those are not good excuses but it's part of the truth as to why I haven't posted anything in a while.
Another problem I have is that I am seriously worried about the future because I know I want to go to college I just don't know what I want to major in or I have too many things I want to major in. I also don't have a job currently so I am worried about how I am going to pay for anything later but because of what I have stated above, I don't think getting a job is the best thing right now. I do however get those odd jobs babysitting and I normally teach my siblings piano and get paid a little for that (which I need to start doing again now that I have more time) so I get some money from that. Anyways the fact that I am literally stressing over everything is another part of the reason I haven't been consistent.
As I mentioned early I haven't had very much time for anything due to several doctors appointments and errands following those appointments. I've kept silent about the struggles my body has been having mostly because they began when I was little and no doctor has been able to figure out what has been happening (I now know that it was because they have only been focusing on each individual problem) and would ride it off as completely in my head or would simply say try this or that medicine and see what happens if not there is nothing I can do. It wasn't until a few months ago that, by complete chance, I found a doctor that had an idea about what was going on but that would need to do some tests to know for sure. Taking those tests was why I had so many doctors appointments and then the errands afterwards were for different treatments I had to get to help control the form of Dysautonomia that I have called POTS. It is not a very well known disorder, I guess, but is more common than most people think. I am going to leave it at that for now because I plan on doing a whole post explaining what exactly it is and what happens when you have it, so for now if you want to know more just Google POTS Dysautonomia.
Anyways that is all my excuses for now and I really do have several posts planned and the pictures taken and all ready to be put up I just haven't done it so I apologize and I hope to talk to you again soon!
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